Finally!

            Finally~ six months in Saudi Arabia! Times passed

  Day after tomorrow I will be flying back to my home country Malaysia for my first vacation since I came here , I can't wait to taste the air and water in Malaysia again! Can't believe it has already six months here. Really experience and learn a lot. No entertainment , only shopping.

I'm going to express some of my feelings here. Being lonely is a great challenge here! I can say, if without Jesus, my life is nothing. Every time when I feel sad, emotional, and lonely, His words comforted me. I pray and sing and worship because I have nothing else to rely but Him alone.

Having a great time here with church family even though majority are Philippines, i have no idea how is Philippines looks like but I learn that they are really warm and friendly. They love foods and time spending with each other. Even though sometimes I don't know what they are talking, but I'm enjoying being with them. Love their foods. It is really similar to Chinese food but a bit different. I will miss them while I'm away for three weeks. Really appreciate their concern on me.

I thought I was going to have someone important in my life. But later, I found that, it is jus reflecting my weaknesses through out the process. And I learn , a relationship doesnt work if jus one side putting effort only. Both are the main cause of successful in a relationship. Of course it is an heartache to learn all this but I know God has a purpose for me. I learn to stay patience in everything. Even though it seems to be right but it is still not. I'm not sure I'm going to wait or I'm going to let go or I'm going to not think of it anymore. It seems to be happy but I don't feel happy. Well, for the joy of the Lord is my strength! I'm just going to stay strong and let God take over and handle it.

Well, I hope coming vacation, will open my mind and heart again. I will rest and meditate in God. Search my heart..